Sunday, April 20, 2008

Spring was supposed to be here by now, but alas, it is cold again. That's okay, I need to soak in as much coolness as possible before moving south. I don't know if those sentences sound negative, but there is definitely negative thought behind them today. The reason I mention this is because I'm trying to recognize and put a halt to my complaining.
Today I was talking with a friend at church about my week at work and I stated that it was a good week, but really draining because of the negativity I was surrounded with. Then I realized that I had chosen to focus on what was negative about last week rather than what was positive and that the very thing I was complaining about, I was doing!
Is is necessary to recognize and be honest about a negative situation? Of course. Through truth, healing can begin to happen. What's not good though, is after the honesty, to continue to dwell on both mentally and verbally what's negative.
I've been really blessed and challenged by a blog written by a team of friends working in the Czech Republic http://teamolomouc.com/wordpress/. They have been blogging for awhile now on praiseworthy speech. Words have so much power. They have the power to heal and destroy. To quote Sid the Sloth from Ice Age: "I choosth life."

Saturday, April 5, 2008

If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.
God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. in this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
-1 John 4:15-18-

Brown Indecision

So, I've been thinking a lot about colors since starting this new blog. Trying to find a template I like takes forever for someone who's super indecisive like I am. Choosing the colors I like is even more difficult. Well, I know the colors I like, but choosing colors that are supposed to look good together is the difficult part.
Sometimes I can be one of those people that doesn't care what others think; in fact, that's what I try to go for most of the time. Often though, I care far too much. For instance: is brown ugly? Personally, I love brown, but a good friend can't stand it and even hid some brown pants I had in college. Because she thought they were so hideous, she didn't want me wearing them. :) Situations like that have served to make me both a little self-conscious and also a little rebellious. If I like brown, I'm going to wear it and put it on my blog! I'll even mix black and brown. I know, that is not allowed if you are big into matching, but sometimes I like it and sometimes I think it can be pulled off. Notice how I'm using the word "sometimes" a lot. True trait of an indecisive person. I'm also very indecisive about words I write in letters or notes I'm sending to people. I waste so much time trying to figure out how to word my sentences.
When it comes to indecision, I'm not only indecisive in situations where I care what others will think. I can spend an hour in the tea section at Wal-Mart, trying to decide which one I want. Wild berry zinger or blueberry? Green tea with caffeine or decaf? Will it be perfumey/flowery tasting? Is that too expensive for 20 bags? Maybe I should get several? I've always been indecisive, but these kind of shopping decisions have become ridiculous and worse since I got back from Korea. If you have any theories on why that is, I would love to hear them.
I'm not indecisive about everything. When it comes to big purchases I tend to decide more quickly. I chose and bought a computer in a matter of a few minutes. When I bought my car -- actually both cars I've bought, were bought quickly without much deliberation.
So here's the question: What does indecision indicate about a person's character or personality, if anything? Am I indecisive because I want to please, insecurity, lack of willingness to commit, because I just like a lot of things, I don't know what I want, I can be satisfied with almost anything?
Either I or someone else I know has written a blog about indecision in the last year, so hopefully I'm not repeating someone. Okay, I'm through. Time to pick a new template and maybe switch some colors up a little. :)

Thursday, April 3, 2008

I'm officially on blogger now. Post #2.

First Blog

Goodbye yahoo, hello google.